Brave Lion

I keep this thought, all too me.
Never let anyone know what it is.
You want to know,
I can tell.
How much I want you to know,
It kills me.

I think about how easy it would be,
just telling you and moving on with our life.
Life's never been so easy.
I continue to keep it from you.
How much I want you to know,
this is killing me.

Sometimes you ask, and it scares me.
Not today, I am a brave lion about to conquer the jungle,
Your world.
Today will be the day I tell.
You'll be happy, no secrets between.
How much I want you to know,
Today's the day you will find out.

Never too Late.

Foolish Man

Your face, the faint crease of anger on your forehead. Your cheeks, a light pink contrasting ever so with your pale skin and dark hair. Your blue eyes, and the water streaming from them. Oh, where is that million dollar smile? Still, you look angelic. I lay here with a scarred heart, but I can't blame you. I couldn't handle it, Caroline.

I'm a coward. I'm an idiot. I'm selfish. You know all of this, it's evident, yet you still stay with me. Why couldn't I do that for you? You're so much more than I deserve. I just couldn't be in front of you, Caroline, not with all that pressure. I'm too immature for a woman of your high beauty and beliefs. I stare down at the velvet box that had once held my future. A stupid little box was the one thing that made me such a coward. But for what? You wouldn't have cared anyways. I am such a foolish man. I let this box rob me for my money. Extra hours in the office, long nights reviewing manuscripts, and for this thing. You expected this almost as much as you wanted this. I never thought I could disappoint you like I have done. These weren't my expectations. Forgive me, Caroline, for you have to understand. This was not the way I had planned. Perfect was my desire, the opposites what I got. I could not surrender the box.

You, my love, always told me nothing could ever be perfect, but you have lied. How you must not see yourself. Hear me now, for I have never been so sure of one thing, you are perfect. I ask myself again, why had I left you stranded all alone in this crisp cold night. I had warned you that tonight was important, that I would take you somewhere nice. You wore your best snazzy dress and heels. You hate heels, love. You had wrapped your arms around me like there was no tomorrow. Was there a tomorrow? No one knew, we could only hope. Another day with you is all I ask. How this hospital bed could do no good when I could be there with you.

I tried to stop myself, but the lights took over. Shining bright into my eyes, I lost my concentration. Your the first thing I saw, you laughing with your white dress blowing in the wind, all those summers ago. That was when I decided that I loved you. Do you remember that? I kept that image even as I slammed into that tree. My body was numb, and I could not see. I could hear though, as if that was important. Those screaming sirens felt as if they were coming closer and closer. The gasps and screams of mothers and children scorched my ears. All I wanted was your voice. I know you would have heard me. Was I flying in the wind? No, I was being picked up. Who was this breathing so close? My hearing became faint. Where am I, Caroline? I can't move or see. I am but a helpless fool.

My eyes but barely flutter open, as if they had never seen the world. What world could I see? All was white. Still adjusting to the light, my eyes could still see nothing. I felt empty, Caroline, where am I? Why must everything be so bright? I try and fight the pain that is running up my spine. My ears feel filled with deep and heavy water. I'm drowning in my own self pity. Why can't I see anything? Am I being punished for not sticking to you, Caroline? Is this when all my regrets pile on me? If I was more of a man mentally, then I wouldn't have left you. You and I were supposed to spend the night together, under the stars and admiring the world's beauty. This night was supposed to be spent under the stars, admiring the world's beauty. Your beauty as well, love. I compare the stars and your eyes, but there is no comparison. Your eyes are of the brightest. And while I stare into the blankness, I see those eyes.

I catch my barrings then, the water being lifted. Everything around me seemed to be crashing down at once. I heard quiet voices around me. The only one I could recall was yours, Caroline. I force my eyes open to catch a glimpse of you. Even with blurry vision, I could still make out all your features. You had your head between your hands, the doctor's hand lying gently on your shoulder. I wanted to speak, to reassure you, but the words wouldn't come out. My arms legs don't move, they feel numb, I try to announce, but nothing. I am invisible, or so it seems. Complexity was surely coming, I could feel it in my heart.

There it had come, and harder than I had anticipated. I listened to the doctor talk to you, your sobs burning my eardrums. He said I would be in a chair for my life, I wouldn't be able to run again. He said I was forever in a state of nothing. Was this man serious? I watched him comfort you, and the thought came across how I'd never be able to see you again. I'd never be the same again. A two hundred pound anchor his me then, right in my gut. You must have heard my gasp, you turned to me swiftly, wiping your tears away. I couldn't look at you, see you like that. You ran to me then, kissing my forehead. I heard you repeat my name and a few Can you hear mes, but my words weren't coming. The feelings in my hands came, surprising me. The first thing I did was put each palm on both sides of your pale cheeks. Your eyes closed, ever so, resting in my hand. You looked tired, collapsing any minute was in your presence. Your eyes locked with mine, like a lock and a key. I looked down at my useless body, how pitiful it was. The box lay against me, taunting my self consciousness. I laughed, letting out a hoarse rawr. You looked up smiling wide, pressing your head against my chest. That instant, this one single moment, I was sure of one thing. You were what I wanted for the rest of my helpless life.

I didn't do it the proper way, due to my handicap, but you said yes. It was not romantic, however I could not see it any other way. This time, I had no sign of regret, You were what I had wanted all my life, love. You said yes without hesitant, not even worrying how we were going to be. You didn't think about the dance you wouldn't be having on our wedding day, you just wanted it to be . Nor did you think about the hiking trip we had planned for next weekend, you said we could buy a plant. I was no longer scared of the box.For the first time in my life, lying in this hospital bed, I knew I would live, even if it was only because of you.

You left this with a smile, and a fulfillment of happiness for a foolish man.

*Guys point of View.

Can It Be?

Your eyes, the color of gold,
make me feel so bold.
Your hair, how it shines,
for how you send these signs.
Your touch, all so gentle,
could this be accidental?
Your lips, oh those lips,
make my heart go in flips.
Your arms, strong around mine,
Feelings shiver up my spine.
What is this?
You're nothing like I've seen,
To perfect for a human being.
Do you feel this?
Or have I missed?
I'm all twisted,
To real to be listed.
Is this love?
Or am I above?
Are you the one,
to warm my sun?
I believe you are,
for this is too bizarre.

(:

You && I..

Technically speaking,
You and I are a lot alike.
I breath, you breath too.
You blink, I blink as well.
Our hearts both beat.
I hear, you hear.
You cry, I cry.
I laugh, you laugh.
We dream,
We love.
The only difference between you and I,
Is that my never ending heart beats for you,
and you have no idea.



Ehh, not very good.
Not for anyone in particular either. ;)